Available...

What can I say? I am going to keep giving it my best shot. I do not think that they guy I went out with last night and I are going to make it either. I think the guy has his eyes on several people. It is cool, I am not in the chasing guys down business. I called him back and he did not call me "can I call you back?"

He was cute, intelligent, smart and attractive. However, I do not feel like... well, he made this big deal about my calling, so I made sure that I did, and you know what, he has not called me back yet. Sigh... I know that guys are into doing this right now, this playing games things, but I am not. I will move on. No games allowed, hell it ain't me, so why should I fake the funk?

You know it is hard out here trying to be authentically yourself and being available for love too. I sometimes want to leave the relationship thing alone. However, I am not gonna do that. I deserve to be loved, to be cared for, to show that love to someone else.

I have never claimed to be perfect. I hope the guys I have met, and I meet until I meet the right guy finds who he needs/ wants/ God chooses for him. I am gonna remain available for that god blessed and given love myself.

Yeah it hurts, no doubt. However, I deserve love, I deserve care, and I am willing to be available for it. I will be available and I wish the other gentleman who moved in and out of my life for that brief period well.

Kita