Life ramblings

I always thought that I would get married. I have always believed in marriage and the whole sha bang. You meet a good guy, you are a good woman, you have kissed your fair share of frogs he has kissed his fair share of fishies and you are happy you have finally met a good, nice, stable yet fun guy.

Ppppshhhttt. I wish it was this easy. *sigh* Well it is, more than likely I am becoming impatient. Impatience and I dance around each other all the time. I hate the chick. She knows it and insist upon pestering me. Lately I have decided to try to be more patient about stuff. More patient with people. more patient with situations and men and ..... uhhhhhhh, life period.

This relationshi patient thing is like a kind of hell. However I must like the joint cause I keep showing up ;o)

I sometimes often think I missed my boat in the love and wonderful life department and should give up and keep moving. However that hope springs eternal and faith in God will not die.

My faith buoys me through it all. God is not finished with me yet, so I will remain available. I don't have the right to give up, I do not have the right to give in.

Sometimes I just want to throw my hands up and say dang it to everything, but nawwww. I am gonna keep on trucking. Sometimes I do self sabatoge. Then I say nawwww. I am not going to go that way. Gotta keep moving on, moving forward.

It is scary as hell.

Kita